Part two: The West
Yoel Hoffman, editor of Japanese Death Poems, observes that jisei poetry arose out of a culture of extreme conformism:
Death poems reveal that before death, the Japanese tend rather to break the restraints of politeness that hold them back during their lifetime. After a lifetime of fitting in, there’s an opportunity to go against the grain in one’s last moments, after which one can hardly be punished for unorthodoxy.
Angela Chen compares jisei and Western death poems. These differing traditions offer a glimpse into the clash of individualism versus collectivism and spontaneity versus control:
When the group takes precedence, as is the case in many East Asian cultures, its members spend much of their lives bending to the collective will and holding back their individual quirks and needs. Against this backdrop, death poems provide a break from conformity, a cherished opportunity to say what one really thinks.
Modern Western poets, on the other hand, favor
…spontaneous last words that serve as a final confirmation of your personal brand…In the West, the pull away from religion, coupled with the emphasis placed on individualism, provided both the freedom to perform our “authentic” selves and the responsibility to make sure those authentic selves were…never phony. Last words are a final chance to reinforce the unique personality the speaker has worked so hard to cultivate throughout his life.
And yet I think I see more similarities than differences. Here are some last words, epitaphs and final poems and comments on death by Western writers:
Good friend, for Jesus’ sake forbeare, To dig the dust enclosed heare. Bleste be the man that spares these stones And curst be he that moves my bones. (Epitaph)
And on that last day when finally I embark
on that ship that will never turn back,
you’ll find me shirtless, traveling light
almost naked like the children of the sea. – from Self Portrait
Walk on air against your better judgment. (Epitaph)
Noli timere (“Don’t be afraid” – texted to his wife shortly before his death)
William Butler Yeats:
How can I, that girl standing there, my attention fix
On Roman or on Russian or on Spanish politics,
Yet here’s a travelled man that knows what he talks about,
And there’s a politician that has both read and thought,
And maybe what they say is true of war and war’s alarms,
But o that I were young again and held her in my arms.
– from his final poem, Politics
And his epitaph, from Under Ben Bulben:
Cast a cold eye
On life, on death.
Horseman, pass by!
I hope for nothing.
I fear nothing.
I am free. (Epitaph)
And now I’m going behind
This page, but not disappearing.
I’ll dive into clear air
Like a swimmer in the sky,
And then get back to growing
Till one day I’m so small
That the wind will take me away
And I won’t know my own name
And I won’t be there when I wake.
Then I will sing in the silence.
– from Autumn Testament
A train waits for me, a ship
loaded with apples,
an airplane, a plough,
fruits of the water, farewell,
imperially dressed shrimps,
I will return, we will return
to the unity now interrupted.
I belong to the sand:
I will return to the round sea
and to its flora
and to its fury:
but for now – I’ll wander whistling
through the streets.
– from Farewell to the Offerings of the Sea
Ranier Maria Rilke:
No yearning for an afterlife, no looking beyond,
no belittling of death,
but only longing for what belongs to us
and serving earth, lest we remain unused.
When it’s over, I don’t want to wonder
if I have made of my life something particular, and real.
I don’t want to find myself sighing and frightened, or full of argument.
I don’t want to end up simply having visited this world.
– from When Death Comes
– Czeslaw Milosz:
In advanced age, my health worsening,
I woke up in the middle of the night,
and experienced a feeling of happiness
so intense and perfect that in all my life
I had only felt its premonition.
And there was no reason for it.
It didn’t obliterate consciousness;
the past which I carried was there,
together with my grief.
And it was suddenly included,
was a necessary part of the whole.
As if a voice were repeating:
“You can stop worrying now;
everything happened just as it had to.
You did what was assigned to you,
and you are not required anymore
to think of what happened long ago.”
The peace I felt was a dosing of accounts
and was connected with the thought of death.
The happiness on this side was
like an announcement of the other side.
I realized that this was an undeserved gift
and I could not grasp by what grace
it was bestowed on me.
If the sky lets go some day and I’m
requested for such volunteering
toward so clean a message, I’ll come.
The world goes on and while friends touch down
beside me, I too will come.
– from November
Now—these few more words, and then I’m gone:
Tell everyone just to remember their names,
and remind others, later, when we find each other.
Tell the little ones to cry and then go to sleep, curled up
where they can. And if any of us get lost,
if any of us cannot come all the way—
remember: there will come a time when
all we have said and all we have hoped will be all right.
– from A Message From the Wanderer
And did you get what
you wanted from this life, even so? I did.
And what did you want?
To call myself beloved, to feel myself
beloved on the earth.
– from Late Fragment
Abe Osheroff (lifelong political activist):
My ship is slowly sinking, but my cannons keep firing.
Or, here’s another way to say it:
I have one foot in the grave
and the other keeps dancing.
(Reputed) Last Words:
Johann Sebastian Bach:
Don’t cry for me, for I go where music is born.
Play Mozart in memory of me, and I will hear you.
I’ll finally get to see Marilyn.
I’ll see you at the movies.
Long live Chile! Long live the people! Long live the workers! These are my last words, and I am certain that my sacrifice will not be in vain, I am certain that, at the very least, it will be a moral lesson that will punish felony, cowardice, and treason.
I don’t want the doctor’s death. I want to have my own freedom.
Henry David Thoreau:
I did not know that we had ever quarreled. (Upon being urged to make his peace with God)
What is the answer?…In that case, what is the question?
Leonardo Da Vinci:
I have offended God and mankind because my work did not reach the quality it should have.
Die, my dear? Why, that’s the last thing I’ll do!
Oh wow. Oh wow. Oh wow.
Let’s have a really good red wine tonight.
And finally, my obituary for Greg Kimura:
Greg called me “brother” – not because we socialized together, but because the time we spent together was in ritual space. There, everyone who could stand the heat, stay in the room and laugh or weep together was either a brother or a sister. We shared these spaces for five years in our weekly men’s group, ten years at men’s retreats in Mendocino, poetry salons and grief rituals.
Greg was “a man of sorrows, acquainted with grief.” And for that reason, he was full of joy. Does that sound strange? I’m reminded of a friend who visited a West African village and asked a particular woman why, despite her poverty, she seemed so happy. She responded, “Because I cry a lot.”
Greg was rock solid. At these rituals he could always be counted on to be one of the drummers. And that’s no simple or easy thing. It means to maintain the beat for up to two hours, to hold the container while others release their pent-up feelings in the sacred work of grief. It’s one of the countless ways in which Greg served the beauty and the terror of this world.
Because of this, Greg’s humor was inseparable from both his pain and his compassion. His Caring Bridge website said, “Hi. I’m Greg and I’m dying. And so are you!” And his poetry. I’d like to think that this crazy insight came from his knowledge of Rumi, who wrote:
Listen, I would make this very plain
If someone were ready to hear what I have to tell:
Everybody in this world is dying.
Everybody is already in their death agony.
So listen to what anyone says as though it were
The last words of a dying father to his son.
Listen with that much compassion, and you’ll
Never feel jealousy or simple anger again.
People say everything that’s coming will come.
Understand this: It’s all here right now.
And me? I’ve been so woven into the mesh of my trivial errands
That only now do I begin to hear the mystery of dying everywhere.
Greg had done much difficult interior work, and so (depending on your point of view) he was a real Christian, a real Buddhist and/or a real Pagan. Perhaps I’m idealizing here – the family knows far better than I – but it seemed that he achieved a profound sense of peace with his own death, an ability to be in the moment. True to his Japanese heritage, he wrote what I think is his own jisei:
Resist the World’s Numbness
And your passion revive,
so when death comes to find you,
Iet him find you alive.
He was lucky in those last nine months to be surrounded by so much love, appreciation and music. When we visited for the last time and I asked him “How are you doing?” he responded, without a trace of irony, Couldn’t be better!”
So finally he was a teacher, who left me with a spontaneous Zen koan that I’ll be working with for a long time. We recited some favorite poems together, including this one of his:
Sit with the pain in your heart, he said.
Hold it like a sacred wine in a golden cup.
The wine may break you and if it does, let it.
To be human is to be broken,
and only from brokenness can one be healed.
The ancestors say: the world is full of pain,
and each is allotted a portion.
If you do not carry your share, then others are forced to carry it for you,
And the suffering you bring to the world is your sin,
But the suffering you bring to yourself will be your hell.
Sit with the pain in your heart, he said.
Hold it there like a sacred wine in a golden cup.
When we got to the third from the last line, he interrupted me:
…the suffering you bring to yourself will be your salvation.